I really need a friend. With benefits.
Am I just being crazy? Two months without any sex. I’ve lasted 18 years without sex, why can’t I live without it now? Maybe because the last two years of that last relationship was just sex, sex, sex, no connection, no talking, no whatsoever. It was either we were fighting or we were having sex. So guess what I chose? Yup. Don’t judge me. I’m sure you’ve done it before.
02/02/2015 – So I’ve downloaded an app called Tinder. Just because I saw all my single friends on it and I was like hey why not, it’s not like I’m going to take this seriously. In all honesty – it’s hella fun. Swiping dudes left or right. He’s cute, ahh nah that dude is definitely not cute. Which one is him? The hell that’s not even a picture of a human being. Talking to random people, it definitely gets my mind off my past relationship. I think that’s all we really need, to just talk to someone, doesn’t even have to be “talking talking” it just can be polite conversation. Wait — who the hell is this?
It’s a match!
You and Mark have liked each other.
Don’t you live on laddie way? Or rent out your house to people?
Who the fuck.. It’s 2AM, so it’s a little creepy getting a message like this in the middle of the night. Mind you, I’m still a little cracked out from the weekends before, just popping a ton amount of pills trying to forget the pain of my last relationship. Of course the conversation goes on very generic – how do you know me, how do you know where I live, oh you’ve met my dad? I guess that’s cool. I start to really look at his tinder profile, now I remember why I swiped right, because his profile made me chuckle. It said “100% herp free.” How serious is this guy?
Finally adds me on facebook, we have 130 mutual friends, and for the life of me I do not remember ever meeting him in middle school or even in high school. Huh. He’s heard of me before, and knows of me, but sorry babe, I don’t remember you at all! Haha.
Of course he’s 2012, comes from the same class as my ex. A little skeptical because class of 2012 was full of shitty people. So of course, I force him into the friend zone and start to call him the friend-zoning names: you fool, nigga, and can’t forget the best nickname – dude. And well, the conversation on facebook messenger was endless after that, surprisingly.
Lmfao this is golden. Not even sure how we managed to not meet all these years
The really generic – oh so you go to SJSU? Me too. What’s your major? Bio-chem? You work at Starbucks? Man that’s cool. What’s my order? Umm don’t judge me but it’s a hot chocolate and a butter croissant. Yes. I will spend $5.20 on a tall hot chocolate and a butter croissant. You want me to get you a bagel at school? What? Wait you wanna get high? I’m coming from H&M at the Great Mall. I’m not about to drive all the way back to the Eastside. You’re a fool, haha.
This goes on for four days. Until that fateful rainy ass day on February 6th, the Friday afternoon where I had an 11am-8pm shift at work.
Do you ever just wonder why it has never worked out with anyone else? Then you finally meet, and not to put a death sentence or anything, the one. You literally meet the one. You feel like you’re back in high school, the butterflies, the actual cinematic blur surrounding you and them, losing the track of time when you have conversations. Not know that it’s almost 6AM in the morning and your dad is already blowing up your phone asking, “where r u” in his fobby-texting voice. It’s like right out of the fucking movies. You meet the one that is so chill to talk to. You meet the one that you can act like one of the guys and be a girl at the same time. They accept for you for who you are, the good and the bad. Your history and your future aspirations. They fully support you mentally. They’re your number one fan, and you them. It’s never a dull moment with them, whether it’s going on a spontaneous trip to the beach or staying home and playing The Last of Us or watching Netflix all day. It’s kind of silly how much I’ve become such a simp. But you can’t help it when you find someone you love, Tony says. A little simpin’ must be done. They literally complete you.
And the best part? You meet them on tinder. Of all places, it’s a stupid app where you swipe left or right. You realize you’ve been their neighbor for your whole life. Who could have thought your “soulmate” has actually been next door. This whole time. This whole time that you’ve been sulking over a guy who has cheated on you over a dozen of times. This whole time that you’ve been self-destructing. This guy. Has been here this whole time. It’s crazy how much people spend time looking for love, how much you try to force a relationship between. A relationship is a two way street. I have had to learn that the hard way with my past relationship. I kind of question if I was ever in love with the past relationship. Maybe I loved the idea of love, in loving another person. But this is remarkably different. This is me, me being in love with another person. Them being in love with me. I would have never thought these last couple of months would happen. We are something that popped out of the blue. This love is a two way street and I love it. It’s pure serendipity from the very beginning.
We met on a Monday, hung out on a Friday, established “us” on a Saturday, then became us on a Wednesday. Our timeline of that awkward “are we a thing or are we not” thing is short, but we’ll go on forever.
ser·en·dip·i·ty \ˌser-ən-ˈdi-pə-tē\. : luck that takes the form of finding valuable or pleasant things that are not looked for.
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument. I believe we place our happiness in other people’s hands. I believe that junk food tastes so good because it’s bad for you. I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to. I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem. I believe I’m loved when I’m completely by myself. I believe in karma, what you give is what you get in return. I believe you can’t appreciate real love until you’ve been burned. I believe the grass is no more greener than the other side. I believe you can’t control or choose your sexuality. I believe that trust is more important that monogamy. I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul. I believe that family is worth more than money and gold. I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair. I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires. I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye.
Call It Karma.
Love will come through, it’s just waiting for you.
09/01/2015 – 9:15PM – Dude I freakin’ miss the sims. It’s been so long, it’s been what? Three or four years since I’ve made a video. I definitely miss the sims community and filming. I’m thinking about making short stories here on my website. I totally forgot I had this until I was going through my videos. Hopefully I’m not too rusty on writing. But I really do miss writing short stories, or even something like Call It Karma. A lot has changed since high school. I’ve graduated from college, guys. LOL. A full-time salary paying job, adult-ing is hard. I definitely miss my childhood and the simple days.. Well here goes nothing, starting my way back into script-writing/story telling.
Our love was lost, but now it’s found. I remember when I finished this episode in the summer! It was around 4 in the morning since I was on a roll, I was filming all the episodes consecutively and when I finished this episode, I was like… AWWWHH YEEAUHH! Mission accomplished. ^_____^
I think I did a pretty good job on tying up loose ends on this series.. Although I left one scene out at the end, it may or may not make a difference. Maybe I’ll post it up one day, who knows. But I never filmed it cause it was very tedious and at 4 in the morning, I couldn’t do anymore. Haha. Anywhooo! Lets go onto the main characters, shall we?
Bringing it back from season one, I wanted to focus on the four main characters. Victoria Elaine, Skye, Natalie, & Amy. That’s how this series originated and then some how within all the confusion and drama it seemed like it was just a love drama between Victoria & Matthew which I kinda wasn’t going for. Lol. Oh well…
- Amy – Her story ends at 3.08, with her wedding. Amy is basically the blessed one out of the four, although it didn’t seem like it in the previous seasons, her ending was quite well. She had her ups and downs in the beginning, everything falling out of place, but as time went on, everything started to fall back into place. Reuniting with Ricardo on their own terms, they were finally ready for each other. I didn’t go into my depth with Ricardo & Amy’s relationship nor Amy’s actual story, but I wish I did though because thinking it out right now, it would have been nice seeing their relationship & herself fall back into place. Amy basically finds herself through time and once you find yourself, you find someone to share the world with. My message that I wanted to pull out of Amy’s story is that you can’t find someone immediately once you’ve hit puberty, you’ve got to find yourself first. You can’t love anyone else until you learn to love yourself.
- Natalie – What I wanted for Natalie was that she kind of ran herself into a relationship without being fully prepared. I mean in the beginning, yes you heard her story about her cleaning herself up and then making a family with Defon, everything seems to be perfect until her sister came into the picture. Her sister was a part of her past which she stowed away and kept secretly until she couldn’t anymore. Her sister being in the picture gave her a wake up call and pushed Natalie to take action into her own hands. Could’ve went more deep with Natalie and her internal struggle, agh, some things I regret in this show… haha. Anywho, what I wanted for Natalie is to finally let go of something that she depended on because honestly at the end of the day, the only person you can depend on is yourself. And I wanted Natalie to go through that. At the end she ends up leaving Defon, (BUT NOT HER CHILD, because she DOES have responsibilities. Haha) and is on a journey to find herself once again.
- Skye – Phuong & I struggled on Skye’s story because when we were initially writing his story, we were like, “NAH THIS!” “NO WAIT PUT THIS IN!” I basically left Skye’s story to Phuong because it is his own story, I just kind of came up with the dialogue and a few tweaks to Phuong’s version of Skye here and there. Haha. We’ve all gone through this before, I believe. Meeting someone on accident when you’re still trying to find yourself. Struggling with a relationship with yourself and with another person. It’s hard to balance the two, and what I’ve said before is to focus on yourself. Sometimes you don’t need a significant other, sometimes you just need a friend to be there for you at your darkest hours. And maybe when you’re both ready, you’ll take that next step that you’ve always wanted to take. Basically at the end, Skye and David end up starting over, David helping Skye with whatever he’s going through. Waiting for him, whatever it takes.
- Victoria Elaine – LOL, I honestly don’t know where to start with Victoria Elaine. Because I did base this character off me, and I’m still struggling with a few things here and there. Victoria has come a long way, finding herself, and seeing all that she’s done, then coincidentally meeting her beau from the past… I guess you could say everything fell into place for her. Even though on screen, it may seem she’s already got everything going for her. But I’d like to say off screens, she was pretty much a total wreck, having to build herself up again and doing shit from scratch. I guess you could say Matthew is a separate character from Victoria, but I’m adding him into her storyline because, HAHA. I’m not sure why, but yeah. Victoria and Matthew as a couple are very dysfunctional, like I’m not even gonna lie. They have their ups and downs, like crazy, one wants to hold on, one wants to give up. Reminds me of a couple I know… Haha. It may seem sappy but if you’re meant to be with each other, you will be some day. I’ve learned something vital from someone because we were having a conversation about this, I’ll just put it quote by quote. “Even after all these fights, at the end, it’s gonna be me and you.” “What if it’s not?” “Well then that’s our mistakes, in time we’ll realize and we’ll find each other again.” I’m not saying you’re gonna find your one and only love immediately, because honestly you’ll probably go through a fuck-load. I’m saying cherish each moment with your special someone and try not thinking of the future and thinking you’ll be together forever, cause that’ll fuck you over a lot. A lot of trial and errors, but things will fall into place. I’m not saying that a couple will end up a couple once again in the future, I’m just saying… Everything will fall into place, it may take time, but just have faith.
I guess every season has it’s own motto. Season one, I’m not sure but I’d say, “based on true-ish events.” Season two, “come as you are.” Season three, finally, is just… “whatever it takes.” I say whatever it takes because, honestly there are gonna be bumps in the road, to finding yourself and in relationships that you’re gonna have. You can do one of two things, give up or keep on going. I mean, do whatever it takes, to not give up on yourself or to not give up on anyone else. The last thing someone wants is giving up.
Hopefully you all learned something vital from these descriptions. I know a few of you are like 10 year olds, possibly my age also.. And you’re just like, “What the hell, this is retarded.” But it’s really not. Just passing on some advice that no one ever gave me and I had to figure this out on my own. Which sucked ass. At least a little guidance will help? Haha. Anyways, just a heads up, life will throw shit at you.
5 years running, 30+ episodes.. I remember when I was starting out with series, I was a mere freshman in high school, and look at me now, I’m already in college. I have a whole life ahead of me. And so do you all. This is kind of my farewell to my childhood. I’ll always look back at this with a smile. I based characters off of my own friends, and I know they all know that. Lol. I didn’t know until right now that this is kind of where we’re heading. College has changed a lot for us, we’re not as close as we used to be. I feel like I’m Victoria Elaine again. Lol. I hope we can all find our own happiness and meet again soon. Eh, enough with the sappy. Enjoy the last and final episode of Call It Karma. :)
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